Today has been a day of closeure, pain and insecurity.

My cat Jinxy has been hit by a car and she is going to have to undergo surgery tomorrow. she might lose her leg but then again id rather have a 3 legged cat then a dead one. its scary and there is loads of what ifs but the best thing we can do it wait and that is what ill do.

Today was as i said also a day of closeure. i closed of a chapter in my life. this perticulair chapter has been closed before but got torn open by the same person who caused it.

lets start from the beginning:

I used to have 3 best friends. they were the best friends you could EVER imagine we shared all the same hobbys and things.. but as always people change and one of these people.. changed for the worse. she started to act like she was better then the rest and rather arrogant. she lied to her own friends heck she lied to her own parents. she stalked me and my 2 other friends when we were shooting pool together. anyway after a long wait she never appoligised and we decided to cut of all ties and we send her an email wich stated that we did not desire any contact with her. after a few months of peace and quiet she contacted us with an email. telling us how much she has changed and that she wanted a meeting with us to explain everything she did. we did not feel the need but because of her constant nagging and telling us how "blind" she was back then we agreed to a meeting. we told her that we'd agree to a meeting on the condition that SHE chose the date and place because after all it was her who wanted a meeting. we said we'd want a meeting in march and gave her till my birthday (30th of may) the chance to find a date. she however was really busy... (wich we later found out to be another lie read this of her deviant art account:

[i]"Alright, I hate this. No, it’s nothing big, but I hate the fact that my mum is driving me nuts. I spend a lot of time upstairs with nothing to do and she doesn’t like that. But what the hell am I supposed to do? Go nuts? She should just let me be and stop whining all the time. [/i]

i thought you were to busy getting a job.. cause ur a freeloader right now)

Anyway it is now the 28th of may and we have yet again cut of all bonds with her. people i write you this as a warning do not become friends with this woman because she lacks a certain trademark people need. wich is truth. she never tells the truth... not ever. i woudnt be surprised if she lied to her girlfriend.
Her name is Sonja and she issnt mature enough to even answer the email my friends and i send her.

Anyway on a much brighter note it is my birthday in 2 days and i am getting my tatttoo tomorrow so i am slightly happy about that but then again my cat is going to need surgery tomorrow.. and that sort makes everything that is going to happen tomorrow bittersweet. all i can do now is pray to whatever higher power and ask that higher power to help my cat Jinxy survive that surgery and keep her leg.

Thank you for reading my first journal and leave a msg <3 Cinlizzy